September 21 Sunday
The house is eerily quiet. Jeremy hasn�t left his room since we got home early Saturday morning. His door is locked and he won�t answer. I�ve tried to catch him making his way to the bathroom down the hall, but I don�t even think he�s done that. I walked around the outside of the house to his window, but the blinds are down, the curtains are drawn and it�s dark. I knocked on the window, hoping for some movement to prove to myself he�s still in there and alive. I saw a crack appear as he pulled apart two of the blinds, but it quickly snapped back as he realized it was me. At least he�s breathing.
Dad�s not much better. The hospital doesn�t want him to visit mom just yet and he has no idea what to do with himself or this new information. He just wanders aimlessly through the house, looking for something to do, but the house is spotless and I think it adds to his disquiet. He�ll walk by the phone in the kitchen, pick it up, then let it fall back onto the receiver.
Amy called every 30 minutes all day yesterday, but I didn�t answer the phone. I�m sure she wants to bitch at me for chickening out of going to the football game and how can I explain to her where I really was, or how fucked up my life has become in the last two months. At first she didn�t leave a message, but then around 4 yesterday afternoon, she started threatening to come over and finally at 6 she said she was leaving. I quickly picked up just to tell her I was sick with the flu, not to come, and then I hung up.
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